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Khairunnisa aka Nisasa,Nisa
29dec 88
Biomedical Electronics Yr 2 ,Republic Poly
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5.06.2006
@10:19 PM

The Day I Snapped.

Funny isn't it when people around me are trying to cheer me up and there i was snapping at their heads. Then I was being a bloody bitch to them plus being mean and say dreadful things. Things that tears a person's heart into pieces just listening to them. Things that made them cry and made them doubt.

I realised I have been a bloody sad bitch who throws her tempers at her friends who are dear to her. Yes I did. My mistake: I let it be. I let it bottle up. I let those dreadful words out of my mouth. I didn't care. I became what i was afraid of. I let my words hurt others. I let my feelings became the better of me. I let my darkside the better of me. I let my temper blind the reality. I said whatever made me feel better. It was I.

But then I realised that when I hurt them. The hurt came to me much more than to them. The people who crapped, who TRIED WITHOUT FAIL to cheer me up and pick me up. Those are the people i have hurt. Those are the people who support me. Those are the people who cares for me. AND YES. I WAS BEING A BLOODY BITCH TO THEM. YES ME. FUNNY RIGHT?! You people out there might be thinking how bloody stupid, moronic, insensitive, dumb, idiotic and _______(feel free to fill in the blank) I am. Yes I agree with you.

And my sad lame excuses were: Stress up in class. How bloody blood boiling is that answer?! Seriously when i think of it. Stupid right? Its not as if my classmates are eating me up. Its not like they are trying to kill me. (the work that was given are killing me. that without a doubt but heck. everybody is facing that problem so it cancels out.)

I have no idea what i have become. So i hope you guys understand. I don't feel like sharing my problems. And that i know is posing a problem in our friendship. All I ask is for some time to adjust.

Sharin: I love you dear. I really do. I am sorry for snapping at you.
Van: I had threw my tempers at you. I know and I am sorry.
Pris: I have said so many hurtful things at you. I have had hurled at you one after the other. I am sorry.
Yani: I think i showed some attitude. I'm sorry too.
Jules: My attitude sucks. I know. I'm sorry too.
Daniel: I have treated u like i also don't know what. I am sorry too.
Merci poure, le triste