Lets forget the negatives.

3.31.2006

@10:38 PM

Brother's parent meeting

oh my god..when i went to the class..
there is this tall guy there..hes sec 1!!
can u like believe it?
he is sooo mat..
and the chinese there..wah freak..so
urghh..blueaks...
only a handful were presentable...
gosh...so scary lah my brother's class..

anyways..my brother practically failed everything
and there is this lady..who asked who was my son
seriously...am i dat old? do i look dat type?
wah..i replied i was his sister lah..
den she said" ohhh.i tot dat was ur son and that ur so young..
so i tot he was ur husband" can u believe it..alex?
my hubby? wth is she thinking...

anyways..got screamed from my mum cos
my brother failed..crap..he fails..i get the scholding
thanks alot. i really appreacite that.
hmm wat else happen today?

apart from being angry most of the day
and shooting sarcasm to the whole class
busy body aunties...and to the teacher..
throwing temper at objects and refraining myself to
the computer to chat for fear of hurting others

i read a book..nice book..good book.
titled" working wonders"

Merci poure, le triste

@1:54 PM

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Physical Touch
with a secondary love language being
Words of Affirmation.

Complete set of results

Physical Touch:		10
Words of Affirmation:		7
Quality Time:		6
Receiving Gifts:		6
Acts of Service:		1

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

Take the quiz

Merci poure, le triste

@1:36 PM

buu buu cha cha

i've got some apm music!!!
gueess from whooo??
jules!! hahaha and feez and kin..

anyways,..can u believe it.
i ate fudge ice cream from macdonalds
like 10 minutes to 12 am...
hahaha..cool rites..
i din go there alone..
a fren followed so..
yea..

and i like buu buu cha cha...
its not a porridege..
its this phrase i fell in love with
a cartoon..soo cuute..

Merci poure, le triste

3.30.2006

@1:43 PM

Sorry Huns..

Barney van,

i'm really sorry about throwing my temper
at you..and i realised i have been doing it
quite frequently...
and i also realised how lame my reasons
could be to be angry at you for other
people's mistakes..
biasly judging u from other people's reaction
to certain situations.
i guess you were there when no one was
and i have no idea why im constantly angry at you
even though it is not your fault..

and i also have not been sensitive to some of the

concerns of some situations when talking to ya.

im thinking rite now..why so.

and i have hurt you without realising it
and am so sorry..
i hope you forgive me..

im sorry babe..

Merci poure, le triste

@12:04 AM

Absurd!!!

seriously, this is my thrid entry for the day..
the oder 2 was just blahhh..
and this...

i am expecting too much from u??!

hello..i never did try to expect anything from my friends
cos i cannot take to be dissapointed if they dun do things..
so i just leave them be..
i never expect anything from them
all i want is their company...
i dun expect them to call me, talk to me..
or watever..
cos they never do!! never had the
initiative to do so!!! im always the one giving!!!

Merci poure, le triste

3.29.2006

@11:14 PM

Deep within

as i lay on my pillow
late at night
waiting for the dust of the
night fairy to settle

i cried a thousand tears
each of hate and sadness
confusion and anger
i walled from my beloved's view

i wonder at times who i was
and why was i like now
who was i then and who
will i be next

i braved the sad faces
i see..to bring light to them
but now i wonder who brings
the light to me?nobody?

i felt useless
like a broken toy
longed forgotton accompanied by the
thick dust somewhere hidden

i wonder why the simplicity of life
has been made to dissapear
and out comes the bad wolf full
of deciet and caused pain

i guess that is what everybody
wants to find out but
scared to do so..
leaving them with more hatred everytime..

deep within me
i cry to thee
to take me with
and cherish me...

my thoughts everytime before sleeping..

Merci poure, le triste

@8:44 PM

Single..roger and out.

i think being single rocks
u dun have to think of alot of things
and u dun feel very irritated.
haha..

anyways..met up wif jules..
met shikin..ju's bestie..
hmm shes short lah..
i tot she tall sia..
hmm so zaagg is tall and kin short..

borrowed 2 books from library..
cos im super uber bored..
anyways..

gonna meet up wif my lovable darlings tomorrow..
riri's back!! hahaha..i miss her so..
and people..

pls stop calling me nisa baba...
so un-glam...

and i feel "un-loved" by vanny soh...
she keep bullying me u noe..
and said it was her natural instinct...
sad man..this kinda fren..
huns pls be discreet..ok...
abt u noe wat..and u noe who..

oh!! and i have this pic of her looking consptipated!!
hahaha who wants me to upload it??
*evil luff*

Merci poure, le triste

3.28.2006

@8:02 PM

Nightmare Lady In Metro Paragon!!

this is about this customer who wants to buy shoe
ladies work shoe..
she wants it to be wearable in the office and
she doesnt want heels...

so firstly i was with this anoder customer
and the metro staff ar..my fren go and
tend to her...
wah she damn fussy lor...
she was at metro abt 1 pm..
den see shoes arx..
see until alot of pairs arx..
den she goes fer lunch wif her family
so we had to put back the shoes she tried on..

she came back..we took it out..
she went fer dinner..
we kept it back..
den she bloody comes again..

den now..i had to tend to her..so
my fren n i were like sian
feel like killing her..
she damn fussy ok...
in all she tried on at least 14 pairs of shoes..
wat was worse was that after trying this brand ecco
she din want..den she went over to timberland..
den i say wat type she want..
den bla bla bla..she say i choose very good
she like my taste.
walau ehz..den scold me y i din tend to her earlier..
walau ehz..had to smile..she is so lucky she din get
up down stare frm me sia..

she was our last customer.. she went off at 935pm...
tsk tsk... and i was there till then!!
i was suppose to go home at 9 ok?!
haish..

the next day she came...
wah jialat..she asked the timber land gal lah tu reserve
for her the bllody shoe..
den walaus..timberland gal..my anoder fren faezah..
go to n fro frm taka to get the bloody shoe..
she came back sorri hor..this shoe nt so new i dun want..
wtf?! like hello if ur gonna use it sure gt a lil line..it wasnt even
a bloody scratch..was just a line..cos u tend to bend ur feet when u walk ma
dumb bitch..

aniways..she made me stay again till 940pm..
stupid ass..
was praying she wun come..again
ever again..
the irritating part is dat i have to be nice to her
and have to smile
and to have put up wif her numerous explanation
and her dunnoe wat..
oh and shes frm the ntuc insurance..
wah ask me go buy frm her..
den explain gt wat plans...
walau ehz...
tsk tsk..pity me man

Merci poure, le triste

3.25.2006

@11:11 PM

I'm sorry ok?!

just got back from work..
am so tired and i have not eaten anything since morning..
which logically follows that i haven eaten anyting for the whole day.
and am so hungry.

went home..saw my brother's black face..
again..i smiled..he just give me a blank look
as if im transperant..
i was like angry but i just calmed myself down
and went to have a bath

mum did not cook as everybody went out
so there is like nothing fer me to scavanger..
except!!
there was this last piece of pizza from yest
i knew it was for mom..asked her she said ok..
was about to heat it up.
den he said..dats mum's
put it back..
i replied i was hungry
and he sarcastically said "that's mom's..i bought it for her"

ok that blew my top!
i was like wtf?!
its like its just like dat lah
and he made it a bloody big fucking deal..
i mean hello..its not like i purposely erase it from my mind
dats y its called "forgotten"
hes being a fucking asshole!!

fine i shall not touch any food tonite neither am tomorrow..
i dun care...i would not touch whatever he bought!!
(he went wif mum in the morning for groceries; so he thinks its his..)
so dumb actually!!
so im just gonna cook myself..

like seriously..i dunno how many times i have apologised..
he shuld have reminded me like on tues or mon..
this one he told me on friday..thanks arx..
how to change??! tell me..
it was partly my fault lahz...
but dun be stupid and drag it...

ehhh shit.. am so fucking hungry..
and my stupid bloody fever is not
giving me any mercy..
i was literally like a zombie at work..
but i did sold 4 pairs of shoes!!

walau ehz..i just missed only one thing in his bloody life ok!!
not like my dad..
he dissapoint me more than my brother and now
my bloody brother is comparing me to him?!
wat the hell?!
seriously was it dat bad?
am i dat bad to forget?

i shall not try to speak to him
i have enough of shits..
one after another

i'd seriously liked him to shout scold..i dun care..
just say something to like scream at me
i hate silent treatment..
its worse..its like a volcano abt to erupt..
im like dat..
im the volcano..
and i noe how much hatred can be bottled up
i dun want him to be like dat..
but den it just proves how alike we are..

oh and i have found a new way to sleep..
just cry....jules gave me dat idea..
and i realised i have lots of things to cry about
i think all my bottling up does some good
in the end...
heck..i wanna just cry..
and i also realise..
dat this blog is
my bestest friend..a buddy and a companion..
its always there..for me..

Merci poure, le triste

@8:59 AM

Pissed with myself.

how bloody forgetful can i get?
like seriously...
last 2 weeks my brother asked if i could go to his
NCC marching watsoever at Kallang..
and i said yes.
and i assured him hes not gonna mess up anything
and its normal to do so..

and now..i gotta werk today!!
fuck me sideways man..
and he was angry yesterday..
and told me not to make empty promises..

he also said my dad and i are the same..
making empty promises
it was so heartbreaking to hear him say that

today he din even speak to me..
he just show his stupid dumb face..
i can't back out now rite..
i'm werking and its too late fer them to find
someone to cover me..

will update about apm when mood changes.

-nisa ur the most bloody stupid sister anyone could ever have. and u are a huge pile of crap. Ur just like dad..even though u never wished to.. it runs in our bloody veins. just when someone depends on ya ur not there.. U THINK THE BIASLY UNJUSTIFIED WORLD IS REVOLVING AROUND YOU..WELL NOW U NOE ITS NOT!

Merci poure, le triste

3.24.2006

@2:36 PM

Pictures Baby!!

heh heh this is at food republic..there was ice in YANI'S mouth...but heck it looks as if she took out her fake teeth... hahahaha..needs cleaning!!

this is me and van..we were sitting opposite each oder...and hse has trouble sitting cos her bloody legs were long...so we took a pic to show how short the table was..she had to double bend..and i sat upstraight..hahaha so funni!! im short..food republic table are the best..fer me that is..wahahaha..but their food bloody expensive man!!

to further prove how short am i to van..here is the proof..im shorter than jules by abt 1 cm..den u do the maths ok...van is abt 1 head taller than me...hahah im realli a miss smurf...

i love this picture alot..its soo nice..hahah..love them..hees... they realli made my day..nyahaha..

Merci poure, le triste

@2:10 AM

sleepless nite..

ok people..im getting cranky by the minute..
like seriously..i haven slept for 5 days..
and today..im going fer the apm..
die la..
i have no energy already...

but im bored see..
and i just finished editing our blog and al's blog..
hope she likes it..
cos its suppose to be a surprise..
her birthday..heees..

ok..things i must remember..
bring batteries..camera and uh..myself..
hahaha
maybe ill put on some make up man..
eye bags showing already..
damn..
aniways...i wanna go watch dvd now..
luv u ppl..outz.

Merci poure, le triste

3.23.2006

@6:53 PM

Just feel like it

dear friend

I have lived in my darkest existence
not knowing what was light
u came and pulled me through
a vortex of beauty
I never knew

you shower me with laughters
and your joys
all your smiles and comforting words
are the sun to my dark icy sky

when I was lost you held
out your hand..
for then i realize that it was
your heart that I was holding on

when everything's dirt
and I when I feel wasted
you came like an angel
with just a smile
you worked magic

you are ever so patient listening
to my whines and troubled fears
your ever warm and comforting hugs
lighten my ever so heavy burdens

until the day when
we're old and grey
I'll cherish you for
your friendship means more
to me than that of any wealth combined

just feel like writing a little something. this week have been a rough one. so i just feel like writing this down. can't explain myself much. wait i never knew how to. its just so wierd. hahaha..
hmm i think i'll lay down fer a while...not feeling to well these days.

Merci poure, le triste

3.21.2006

@9:07 PM

was just wondering

just got back from town
went out wif jules van pris riri yani and haryati
finally..hahah got to meet haryati..mann
i tot shes about our height lah...
den saw her..shes about van's height..damn
hahah.

enjoyed the day. very much.
love them to bits and pieces.

was just wondering..
im enjoying my time with my poly friends.
alot i must say.
but my best friends..
i wonder where they are
never heard from them.
if they r online...
i always have to make the first move
to say hi
i feel invisible...
i think they dun even bother.
sometimes i wonder if i am thinking too much?
but seriously..
haha all those promises of keeping touch
seems so broken. wait they are broken.
why?
cos all of us are busy. with school.work.stuffs.
hell i dunno wat else.
went out yes...dats abt it.
den i'd hear nothing from them..
its as if we are all long distanced.
the blog is useless.
realli.
i now totally dunnoe wats going on
wif kin and al..
not very sure bout res and shu.
the people i do noe are feez n amirah.
pathetic. i noe.
sad really. wasted.

Merci poure, le triste

3.20.2006

@11:00 PM

What did i do wrong?

every single time u see me
u'd always say
i do this wrong...dat wrong
what is wrong
u'd never tell!
that is soo frustrating.

and here i am..
blogging about it..
how retarded.

and im soo bored to death
cos everyone is busy doing other things
aiyai!! stupid idiocracy baloney!!

Merci poure, le triste

@9:45 PM

New picture..

Woo hoo...i did the picture..
am happy and pleased with myself...
i love it...i dun care if u ppl dun..
the doodle was done by jules dear..

the pictures are neoprints..
the above ones are jules,me riri and dan
next to it..me van jules and pris..
the bottom ones are my darling animal farmers..
Happy happy happy...

shoots!! i forgot van!! and pris!! shit shit shit!!
wait i go edit arr...
am editing!! wait wait..
so sorry darlings..
i tot u were there...
hahaha stupidity..

Merci poure, le triste

3.19.2006

@11:09 PM

werk...

just got back...
so tired..
legs are sore...
feet ..dead.

got a new fren!!
her name's vanessa..
hee shes so fun!!
we crapped alot ok..
had lunch together..
and omg..
shes the first chinese
that i see eating chilli padi like
nothing...power sia.

den like dat..
boring sia today..
and i was luck van din meet me..
and to dat idiot who was suppose to meet me...
ur dead..

Merci poure, le triste

3.18.2006

@11:42 PM

People who made my day!!

saturday... a day we should be at res's house..
to watch movie..
in the end,..as usual..it got cancelled..
im not realli angri cos of dat..

its just that sometimes i feel and am convinced
that i waste money on sms-es..
people who dun reply.
like seriously.. it pisses me off .
and i wuld be like a stupid shit waiting for
a fucking reply.

i mean there is the thing called the fucking phone..
and im not like asking u to tok to me like fer long hours..
just a fucking answer would just make my day..
like wat?? it wuld be over under a minute.
fuck it if its late..i sleep late.
i appreacite it if ppl tell me.
at least i will know and wuld not leave me there
like a stupid shit...

anyhows...i went out with qiao yuan
and chew wei in the afternoon!!
had soo much fun!!
i've never luff my guts out and feel
so happy for loike a long long time sia..
i mean the oder day with jules was
enjoyable hahah..but she's a poly fren..
i meant sec sch fren...

ate at lunch at anchorpoint!!! so long havent been there!!
den saw lawrence(facilitator) can u believe it??
with his soo not good looking galfren..
hahahah...he was shocked!
dat was cute..hees..
den we went queensway
get the qiao yuan's camp stuff
-shampoo
-shoe bag
-shoe
-shorts..
uhh den we end up shopping..hahah
qiao yuan got a skirt..
i got a bag...
chew wei gt a realli nice top and a skirt
and her belt!! was realli nice

den i met my sis...
we went to watch dorm..
went to pizza hut where she werked return the uniform...
walau ehs..
so many mats
so disgusting lahz
ewww...haha
she blanja me..the whole thing food and movie!!
den i blanja her back..heh oni a milkshake...
she was happy aniways..so its cool!!
man we crapped..and luffed!!
was so fun going out with her..
den we bitch abt people..hees..
like wats new..=)

IN FACT...IM HAPPY THAT I WENT OUT
WITH THEM!!
woo hoo...instead of feeling shitty and angry
i felt yeyness and happy..
i love u gys man...

Merci poure, le triste

3.17.2006

@11:26 PM

more pictures!!! woo hoo!!

jules and me at the back of dennis car...nyahahaha...

van eating mc donalds cos shes super uber hungry at PS..
this again is my dear jules in our art camp.... fuyooo!!

and to my hot hot sexy vanessa..dun worri..ill make ur pictures work!!! luv ya huns!!!

Merci poure, le triste

@8:54 PM

i dun want history to repeat.

firstly to amirah...
darling we are a group..
its not as if we hear from u every day
when ur at sydney..
so ppl tend to ask around...
and for that matters its oni me or res or feez or wan
tt has contact with u...
the rest rarely does..
and they deserve to know that u may not come back.
and anyway i havent tell them lor...
which i might 2morro!
urghhhh...

how do u expect me to shut up like dat?
i did dat once with tanya and
im not gonna repeat that!
im trying not to hate her
fer doing that ok...

hais...i do hope u understand..=[.. sobs..

Merci poure, le triste

@5:05 PM

Not scary...

ehhhh...i dun understand the storyy!!!
i am currently watching
ghost of mae nak..return of nang nak..
its supposed to be scary!!but its not!!!

sooo dumb!! i was luffing at the story...
firstly the ghost is soo dumb!!
go chase the person fer wat..
u want that thing take lah
u go stalk them..
like how dumb??

den wah lau the make up..
luffing matter..i wasn't scary..ahahaha
ok..lucky i din watch it in the movies..
if not it wuld be a waste of money sia...

now i wanna watch dorm...who wanna go wiff me??

Merci poure, le triste

@3:07 PM

Picture fun...

all of us know that
when someone is bored
and has nothing better to do
or has completed what they wanna do
and have spare time...
will resort to crappy stuff to do..
i did just that...
it was fun...hahaha

ok people i did this under 20 minutes.
all thanks to photoshop!!

jules van and myself at mc cafe...just outside shaw

vanny and riri...same place..( im too lazy to open a newer folder so just grab watever i could)

this is jules screaming at me..i forget wat i did..and i think dan took this pic..or was it riri? no idea..hahahah.(hope u guys can see what i type in the pic..=))

ok i hope u guys enjoy...i dunnoe whether u guys can take the pic or not..but if can good...

if cant..ask me babes... chao..

Merci poure, le triste

3.15.2006

@9:54 PM

Bad Day

im using green..i find dis green nice..hees

firstly i feel really really bad for cancelling
our outing daniel...
sorry yea..cos i din feel like working anymore..
im just so tired and i dunno..
maybe when sem 2 start and when i noe my schedules
is better fer me..den i noe when im free..

so with the shitty feeling i woke up ..
i realised my cousin was at my sister room..
cos she came to tutor her..
with my morning swings i just ignored her and took my clothes..
took a bath..
den uh..sat in front of the tv..
den on my lappy chatted wif van n jules and pris
and shiyun..and wan and ian and i dunno.

arghh..cleaned the house..
den mum came home..wat surprise -.-"
scolded me with the excuse of the house being messy..
how dumb is dat? i cleaned it lor
it was like sparkling clean..i even mopped the floor!!

aiya..dun care lioaz la..
she keep scolding me..if i say back
she scold me fer being rude..
and when i shut up..she scold me y i keep quiet
wah den she want me to do wat?
mime?

im really looking forward to this saturday
den ill meet my darlings
we're gonna be at a movie marathon at res's house
woo hoo..
so
dun u people dare cancel it!!
i dun care..we go!!

hmms..i keep feeling tired like siao
crazy sia... i dun even noe why!!
hahaha am i stress? but stress fer wat?
-.-" dumb rite..
arghhh!!!

now im sitting in the living room and
my sis is watching "teman anugerah"
stupid show!!! so melodramatic can??!!!
so malay!! eeee disgusting!! pui pui pui!!

walau ehz act cute lei!! wth?!!
cannot stand it sia!!!!
eeeeeeeeee..and im now disgusted..
so disgusting!!!
pui!pui!pui!

oh i can't bloody caps lock anything cos
this stupid blog will still make it in small
letters...

Merci poure, le triste

3.12.2006

@3:32 AM

Date Movie? Stupid Shit!

hmm went PS yesterday...
res wanted to buy some stuff..
den...we had lunch at KFC..

uh den shu and i wanted to buy slippers ar..
but cant decide..so we buy sum days okies?
i wanna get tt red or black one..

ok shoppin fer al's birthday
den feez shoppin fer her sis's

im so broke!!

oh we watched Date Movie
at lot 1 cos cant get the tix at PS..
and res went home earlier..
so we teman her den watch arx..
we were late..
oni 5 mins.

walau ehz..the story no plot one lor...
so merepek..
and then oni a few luffable scenes..
and they weren't hard luffs
just some "heh ok.."
waste my money lahz!!
it was like $9.50!!!
plus there was no Air-conditioning!!!
it broke down!!

i will thus rate the movie..... 1/1000 out of 5 stars!!

Stupid slenger show!! so sickening..

3 of us were fuming mad lah after the show...so spastic..bdh sei!!

sighs...i miss jules van riri pris yani and dan...sian ar..
shuld we go out some time?

*pris i noe ur upset wif me...
im sorry...sighs..

* baby i not angry with u..
im just upset abt ur frens.
they are so insincere...
they make me feel like shit
around u guys..or fer that matter
i kinda stereotyped all of uh...
how do i say this..
ur religion? ur kind? i dunno..=(

Merci poure, le triste

3.10.2006

@8:22 PM

Shopping!!!...at west mall -___________-"

i was like irritated in the morning...
hahah den i went paragon...
go teman my couzin..
im starting on sunday..metro..
under shoe sales..
sianz...
oh and im only working on sunday..

now..i have to find a weekday job..

wanna noe y im more desprate..
i went shopping wif mum..
den...i bought blouse..pants..
shoes...hahahah..and contacts!!

woohoo!! i spent like 200 bucks..die lah...
have to get job!!
im more desperate now!!!

hmm ok.. to the "..." tagger..
firstly i dunnoe who u are..
i dun think u even have the right to criticise
my friends...
u dun noe them and u dun understand how they werk..
so u culd just back off...
i love them..that i know..
and i know they love me too
if they are not there literally
it doesnt mean they are never there..
so i think u just leave us be..

Merci poure, le triste

3.08.2006

@12:29 PM

Oh what a day..

yey!!! everything between me and ian worked out!!

hahaha we're best of friends...dats about it..hehs

okies...other than giving a reality check on some people..
i did nothing..wait..
i did the house chores and i help my brother do his home econs project..
can u believe it..its so dumb..i hate home econs!! hahah i oni liked the food..
wat's the surprise there?hahaha..i dun like the veges thou..yuck!

i feel tired sei..so lethargic..oh yea im going fer the apm!!! anugerah planet musik!!
its a music awards fer the malay songs fer those who aren't familiar with it..

hmm ok relationships...love...uhhh mixed feelings? haha
man its sucky to be caught up in these stuff...
hais...i dun think im thinking shallow on some people...
im just stating what i think..
hais...i dunnoe wat to say ....so..good luck?

oh yey!! ian's back in church service!! haha
happy fer him..uh ok...
i think im ok fer now..have no regrets..
oh yea! i wanna go out wif u guys!!
i wanna go out!!!
watch movie??!
go out?!!
go!! go!go!!

Merci poure, le triste

3.07.2006

@2:35 PM

urghh..
stop it please for your own sake..
seriously..
i have had enuff of ur reasoning...
we can't be together...

i told u over and over again..
ur making me realli mad..
i dun wan people hating me just cos im with u..
i hate it!!hate it!!

i feel like taking a frying pan
and knock on ur head!!
how blind can u be..
go pray or sumthing!
im sure there is a lot for u to pray about!

Merci poure, le triste

3.06.2006

@7:23 PM

Religion...

note* this is an entry i wuld like to share. not meaning to be disrespectful of the other religion.

sighss...here goes..

i like this guy..this guy likes me...
but we're both of different religion..
he's a devoted christian and
i'm a devoted muslim..

wat is more..
he is a church leader
a person who the young ones look up to
a person whose religion.. a priority

he believes in the BIBLE
and i, the QURAN
2 religions that have so many similarities
yet different in so many more ways

Christians are not to have a partner in anoder religion..
so this is a problem we were facing..
he was urged by his many church mates(they were church leaders too)
not to be with me...
they even have a word to word with me stating facts..

truthfully i was hurt beyond comprehension
felt my heart break a thousand pieces, stabbed a million of times
i felt like shit..i even hated the christians by then..
i was sarcastic to my many frens..
i hate them..i felt so betrayed
i was angry at the church leaders..angry wif van.

i then think..and think y are they like that..
but then i realised its not them..
and that i have to respect what they believe in..
i started to love them again...
think of all those nice memories we shared..
the luffter...

i loved them back and felt so guilty..
i apologised..
and now....

I LOVE THEM...AND CHERISH THEM..
IM SO SORRI IF I WAS HARSH..
I DID NOT MEAN IT..
maybe a lil? cos i was realli upset..
sorry...

i guess we have our differences...
hey ..thats life..
we cant change it..
im glad i have my muslim frens by my side
my christian frens...
aiya just glad dat all my frens are with me on this..

im still sad..but i cannot do anithing to change
its heartbreaking...

sorry long entry...=[

Merci poure, le triste

3.05.2006

@12:12 AM

DAT WAS SOOOO STUPID NISA!!

DUMB dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb!
dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb !
dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb !
dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb!
dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb!

stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid
stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid
stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid
stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid
stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid

im so stupid.
i hate that
im so sorri....

Merci poure, le triste

3.02.2006

@8:01 PM

don't tell me who i am!

I had my nails in striking pink.
yes.
striking.
its not that i wanted it in dat color.
but accidents do happen.

So i went to the class.
The gals were of cos like asking.
i dun mind.
and these guys were like saying.
ee why dat color?!
like seriously...i repeat i din want dat color
it was suppose to accompany the baby pink.

some of da guys were like ok dats it.
but this idiot kept rambling.
like seriously..
and kept saying "nisa this si soooo not u"
like stupidy has struck u or sumting?
u've only known me fer like half of a freaking year.
and u tell me dat?!
hello i use to color my nails ok?
doesn't mean i use tudong i cant do watever i like.
and i color my nails in watever color that pleases me.
the nails are mine.

how bloddy stupid can one get. seriously shuddup!
irritating basket case man..

and what do guys know anyway...stupidity of shits...
hmm maybe i'll color my hair pink.
striking pink!all pink!
good!

pity my hair can't be shown.
sickening.

urggh..damn pissed lah..

and my sister do not want to take her medication
and winds up in hospital
my god...just take the damn medicine can??
mum is screaming herself out..
cos i did not take care of her..
hah typical..

to all those idiots out there:

i am who i am.
u dun like me?
u dun like what i do?
u think u noe better? save it!
leave!

just leave...its better dat way.
it will save u frm my sarcasm.

Merci poure, le triste