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Madame
Khairunnisa aka Nisasa,Nisa
29dec 88
Biomedical Electronics Yr 2 ,Republic Poly
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1.27.2006
@10:57 PM

Weighed Down

i feel weighed down....
as if tonnes of stones rest above my aching back
what are these stones fer anyway?
like seriously?

i drop them beside me and looked at each of them
i remembered then...
i began to be confuse
why do i keep them with me...
carrying the weight which nearly broke my back


i fooled my frens into thinking im strong
yet i longed for the hugs
i've been wanting for so long...
so long...tt i already gave up

the wounds and bruises from carrying the stones
are begging for mercy
my legs are begging fer mercy
my heart...is on its knees

but i can't stop now....
i dunnoe where to leave the stones..
i have to carry it...
i NEED to carry it somewhere...
but..WHERE?


if i were to leave it here..
someone might trip..
i wouldnt want that...
i guess..it has to stick with me then...


sighs...well..holidays are here..so i guess i could rest? hahaha..i dunno ok..i just feel like this...let's see where life brings me...GOD is always there fer me..so no worries..the bruises will heal..
Merci poure, le triste

1.24.2006
@9:19 AM

im sitting in lawrence class....besides his good looks there is nothing worth it in his class.. like seriously and i have to sit beside grace ...wth?i just hate being in her grp can...sickening...

she so disgusting can?! eeeew ewww ewww... yah watever... say im bad.... but like seriously she shuld act her freaking age!! so disgusting lei...

first she scratched her ear ..then she scratch her back..den bit her nails den she go on over to scratch her pimples..like wth sooo disgusting can?!!! den she bit it..walau ehz...den she's like thinking i din see lah but seriously!!!!!! im beside u!!!wake up lahz!!! urrrrrggghhhhhhhhh.....

so bored to death dunnoe wat is going on...i hate enterprise man....shit lah...so irritated...

EWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!
Merci poure, le triste

1.22.2006
@12:28 AM

u noe wat..i have the wierdest dream....It doesn't make sense thou..but it was sure damn funny..
still remember it vividly..

ok the setting was like this...

Vanny, jules and i was walking somewhere ...not sure of the place thou..
then as u ppl noe me....i complained that i was tired and need a rest..so yea..we sat down...
den suddenly..vanny went to tongue jules...YEAH U READ THAT RIGHT... VANNY tongued JULES.... at this point i havent woke up yet...

I WOKE UP ...when van told jules.." did u have strawberry ju?"

i woe up half luffing half confuse and lay there wondering for at least half an hour thinking abt that before going to sleep... freaky man...

so funny rite...i told van..and she confirmed she IS 100% PURELY going fer men...
but i haven asked her WHAT type of man..hahaha...she's soo gonna kill me...
Merci poure, le triste

1.20.2006
@12:51 PM

You scored as You tend to lock it all away. You tend to lock what you really want to say deep down inside where no one can see. Keeping things secret rather then exploiting it out in the open. These type of people like to hide what it is they are feeling but would rather tell someone who really cares. Once it builds up though it is a continuous cycle of building up feelings then letting them out sooner or later.

You tend to lock it all away

92%

You show people the little bit of you so they can guess the rest

92%

You like to express how you feel by writing things down, music, or artwork

79%

You cover them up with false advertisement

75%

You hide your feelings by not saying much

38%

How do you like to hide your feelings?
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Merci poure, le triste

@11:11 AM

She sits in her corner
Singing herself to sleep
Wrapped in all of the promises
That no one seems to keep
She no longer cries to herself
No tears left to wash away
Just diaries of empty pages
Feelings gone a stray
But she will sing

Til everything burns
While everyone screams
Burning their lies
Burning my dreams
All of this hate
And all of this pain
I'll burn it all down
As my anger reigns
Til everything burns

Ooh, oh

Walking through life unnoticed
Knowing that no one cares
Too consumed in their masquerade
No one sees her there
And still she sings

Til everything burns
While everyone screams
Burning their lies
Burning my dreams
All of this hate
And all of this pain
I'll burn it all down
As my anger reigns

Til everything burns
Everything burns
(Everything burns)
Everything burns
Watching it all fade away
(All fade away)
Everyone screams
Everyone screams
(Watching it all fade away)
Oooh, ooh
(While everyone screams)
Burning down lies
Burning my dreams
(All of this hate)
And all of this pain
I'll burn it all down
As my anger reigns
Til everything burns
(Everything burns)
Watching it all fade away
(Oooh, ooh)
(Everything burns)
Watching it all fade away


hmm..i think i feel like this...but i din sing lahz..like duh..its not raining at all...i think in few months to come i may not have the feelings i have anymore... leaving it behind or burning it all down...anger has consumed me i think...keep feeling angry at ppl for no reason....i dun usually use the word hate..but i think im using it more and more..like seriously...
Merci poure, le triste

1.18.2006
@9:07 PM

arghhh!! major heart ache!!

i dunnoe what to do... i feel so lost...like seriously...i dunnoe who to turn to..everybody's busy..

i keep myself busy...but then i dunnoe what im busy fer ...I KNOW!! SPASTIC RITE?!

everytime i turn to the pictures of frens ard my room...i feel sick..i dunnoe..i just feel so sick in the stomach and i feel like puking...but i dunnoe why i feel like that..like so odd...have been feeling it fer like a few months...

it hurts thou looking at them...and i cannot say or relate it to someone...i mean...ok i dunnoe wat i mean...

u noe what..i think im wasting ur time by posting this..but then i dunnoe..wtf is wrong wif me can...so cacat..

ok the sickly feeling is coming back...
Merci poure, le triste

@8:14 PM

CLEARING MISUNDERSTANDINGS
Firstly to my dear class of PJ01-02A...
the incident was a misunderstanding between my friend....so no harm done..okies..so that is that..dun talk about it okies?..i realli appreacite it thou...realli love u guys to bits and pieces...
to vanessa Soh....
im sorry aites...love you to bits and pieces and to molecules itself..=)
to vanessa lee..
speechless.
to whoever read my blog
dun get the wrong idea...
Merci poure, le triste

1.17.2006
@7:42 PM

TO ALL PEOPLE WHO HAVE SUICIDES THOUGHTS

seriously what is freaking wrong with you people?? u wanna die?? for a guy? for ur problems? for what??? like seriously how fucking stupid can u ppl be??!!

in this superbly unjustified,bias and overly cruel world there will always be problem what.... and to think that u are so young of age AND THINKING OF DYING is most heart breaking.

for god sake, god give u problems cos HE NOES we can handle it..so much incentives in this world that could be used to help u out wif this problem....but no..u egoistical,superfied idiots have not thought of seeking help but resort to try to kill ur freaking self...

like seriously how STUPID IS THAT?!


to vanessa: SERIOUSLY i have no time for all this stupidity... if u choose the way u want to be then be it. i'm sick and tired of having all those conversations with u which is just waste all of my precious time...i give up on you.


to al: just stop cutting up urself.. u wanna smoke go ahead.i dun mind but limit urself.and quit if u can. we're all here ti help. make YOUR choice
Merci poure, le triste

1.12.2006
@8:30 PM

Hello all the earthlings out there who has none to do but read my blog....wahahah...

hmm today olrite lah nothing much to say ... hais the open hse is sooo near and i hate that lah...haish...

jules dear's birthday is also coming..but i havent even given yani her bdae present and now thinking of what to buy for jules..haishh..pening kepaler...

anyway i think im beginning to like green and i dunnoe why...since i see the RP open hse T...


tired lah..k ar.bye..
Merci poure, le triste

1.10.2006
@12:22 PM

ok..so irritated rite now...

its hari raya haji...yes i noe....

sheesh...like in da mornin it was freaking raining..and i hate it when it rains and i have to go fer the morning prayer....walau eh...den i slept on lah..saying to my mum prolly the gal side will be too packed to pray..cos for gals is not a must to have the hari raya prayers like they boys do...so i din go...then my mum like went lahz....den dad came in from the showers ..he asked wanna come alog..den i say i think its gonna be pack....

i tot that was the end of it...den mum shouted get ready..so i was like wth...the prayers starts at 8 ..im still in bed like 730...EVERYBODY noes how super slow i get ready..

so i din go..they left angry at me..(which i dunnoe y cos my sis is syill in bed SLEEPIN)...den like abt 930 they came home i guess....

my mum stormed in my room and said...the gal side wasnt full at all...then for me it logically explains why...ITS RAINING...EVERYBODY HAS THE ASSUMPTION THAT IT WAS GONNA BE FULL AND THAT THEY ARE NT GONNA RISK IT....wth..so logical lah...

and now...everybody is screaming at everybodi and i dunnoe where to be cos the house is sooo busy..i wanna go this room my sis is in..that my bro is in...everywhere i go there will be some ppl..and its like freaking retarded cos they(mum is the one..they reply) are shouting at the top of their lungs at each oder .....such chaotic manner...and here i am..sitting with my raya clothes not iron and haven taken a bath..wahahah i feel so evil...but i noe im soooo gonna get it when i leave this room...

tata ppl have a nice holiday...slamat hari raya haji to all muslims..
Merci poure, le triste

1.06.2006
@9:53 PM

me? why me? urghhh.....*extremely irritated....*

anyway..i think i have treated my besties like shit in campus..so sorry babes..i noe i've been so bad to u guys..maybe cos im irritated at myself or some stuff that is being bottled up in me...so sorri yah...but yea...haish...

ok lahz...stress lei... gt so much things to do..=(..

god help me..
Merci poure, le triste

1.04.2006
@8:08 PM

****correction to previous post: its pierre png...NOT adrain pang...sorri
Image hosted by Photobucket.com PIERRE PNG & dan
Image hosted by Photobucket.com smoking peeps...
Image hosted by Photobucket.com Riri & Sasa
Image hosted by Photobucket.com ...3 angels..maybe devils in disguise..hmmm
Image hosted by Photobucket.com PIERRE PNG & us
Image hosted by Photobucket.com..vanny and moi
Image hosted by Photobucket.com ...my lovables being
Image hosted by Photobucket.com ...my darlings came* Pj01-02

haven't been blogging lately cos im super duper lazy nowadays and that i think its been nice keeping stuff to yourself all the misery and pain inside myself....to keep my mind off things...which i clearly suceed....

stuff has been going on lately...things that i dunnoe why it happened and the pain they caused are unbearable....

it sucks actualli having to live thru it every single night when im alone..very sickening actaulli...urgh..

anyway enuff of emo me..god i hate it when im like this....i fel so small and insignificant when im like that....so shitty lahz..and my grades ...hahahah ARE GONNA SUCK....haish....hmm i've got a lot to live up to man...

sent my couz...to london..the previous month...my another cousin went...and people are already asking me when is my turn...i doubt so lah ill be going...firstly...my school no attatchment..and if there is only the top 5% are gonna get it....me? hahahah 20% from the BOTTOM lahz...

hmm joined glass thingy on art..gonna be great...
school open house will be on the 14-17..which all of these days i'm gonna be there... 14 morning and 16 full day i'll be the tour guide..and the rest of the day i will be at the art club booth!! catch me there if u have the time..=)
Merci poure, le triste