Lets forget the negatives.
10.09.2005
@1:20 PM
Had a rough week....with things not going as plan...falling ill i guess...nobody cares anyway... feel wierd when spending time with ma family..i wonder if any of the families sat together chat forgetting about a family member...cos it happened to me...
was breaking fast together...den everybody spoke..i just ate and stared at ma own god damn plate...i din even taste the food..everything was so mechanical...after dat i just washed up then went to ma room....so i just rot in ma room and everybodi was like at the hall watching tv...after prayers dat is...
Then when they wanna turn in after theie enjoyable day with fun love and laughter...my Mum went in ma room...ANNOUNCING their retirement in a tone of i dunnoe..was it anger?disgust?dissapoinment?....i dunnoe
the thing that irritates me is that i dunnoe what i did wrong...i just came home the time that i normally come home...or that they saw me coming home with zahran? wth? of that i spent time with mohd? or what ? TELL ME!!
Things to do today: rot and be damn
pray
be more invisible
Merci poure, le triste